“And at the end of the time I, Nebuchadnezzar, lifted my eyes to heaven, and my understanding returned to me; and I blessed the Most High and praised and honored Him who lives forever: For His dominion is an everlasting dominion, And His kingdom is from generation to generation. All the inhabitants of the earth are reputed as nothing; He does according to His will in the army of heaven And among the inhabitants of the earth. No one can restrain His hand Or say to Him, “What have You done?”” {Daniel 4:34-35 NKJV}

Lately, my Fellowship friend and I have had a lot of discussions about “having peace.” As you may have guessed, one of us has not been living a very peaceful life (me) and through our fellowship, I have discovered the reason for this…the same person (me) who did not have peace was also full of pride.

It’s funny how I was blind to this fact. I guess I equated “pride” with being “boastful” and sometimes pride reveals itself in that manner. My pride took a more rebellious form. Let me give you an example…

The first couple of weeks that I was in the psych ward, I refused medication and did not get any better. My pride told me that I should be able to fix my mental problems myself, because I’m such a smart person and understand everything (What a load of crap). I told myself that if I had to have medication to get well, then I was weak and I wasn’t going to admit that!

It wasn’t until I finally conceded to the doctors and their knowledge and wisdom, that there was healing. I started taking the medication and lo-and-behold, I started getting better.

This life experience happened to me more than 20 years ago (although, sometimes it feels like it just happened yesterday) and it’s taken me this long to finally understand what the problem was. The verses that ff shared with me were the turning point and I was no longer perplexed about what was keeping me from having complete peace in GOD…it was my pride.

When ff shared these verses from Daniel, chapter 4, I finally realized that I was trying to be the King of Babylon, and was claiming victory (or failure) over things in my life that I had no business making a claim to.

 “The king spoke, saying, “Is not this great Babylon, that I have built for a royal dwelling by my mighty power and for the honor of my majesty?”” {Daniel 4:30 NKJV}

The next few verses were the ones that completed the puzzle of why I couldn’t find peace in my life…

“While the word was still in the king’s mouth, a voice fell from heaven: “King Nebuchadnezzar, to you it is spoken: the kingdom has departed from you! And they shall drive you from men, and your dwelling shall be with the beasts of the field. They shall make you eat grass like oxen; and seven times shall pass over you, until you know that the Most High rules in the kingdom of men, and gives it to whomever He chooses.” That very hour the word was fulfilled concerning Nebuchadnezzar; he was driven from men and ate grass like oxen; his body was wet with the dew of heaven till his hair had grown like eagles’ feathers and his nails like birds’ claws.” {Daniel 4:31-33 NKJV}

GOD saw my prideful attitude and while HIS response may not seem as extreme as it was to Nebuchadnezzar, for me it was. I spent 20+ years dwelling in the wilderness, acting like an animal. I tried to live life on my own. I tried to fix parts of me that were broken. I tried to reason and understand what GOD’s plan was. I was trying to make GOD’s plan work out the way I wanted it to. My friends, let me tell you…that did not work out for me.

But…the good news is…I have shed the blinders that were keeping me from seeing Who GOD really is and what HE can do, not for me, but what HE will do with me.

There is more to this story…but I’ve gone on long enough for today.

I hope I’ve given you something to think about. If you are not experiencing peace, what is the reason? By the way, please don’t confuse “peace” with “everything is sunshine and roses!”

I have a story that goes along with that thought, and will share it with you next time   🙂

For today, my prayer is that I will no longer allow pride to control me, but let GOD’s peace consume me.

Gaining strength though our fellowship.      

“That which we have seen and heard declare we unto you, that ye also may have fellowship with us: and truly our fellowship is with the Father, and with his Son Jesus Christ.” {1 John 1:3 KJV}

Photo by ff

Daily Prompt: Perplexed

You may also want to read: Worshiping the “I” idol…

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